Up and down

So, I’ve been feeling a bit off the past couple of weeks. I’ve been trying to do way too much and it caught up with me earlier this week. I feel like I’m starting to snap back, but it’s been a wake-up call, a reminder of what I went through last year — and what I need to do to avoid feeling this way.

Why is it so easy to take care of everyone else but so hard to take care of me?

Comatose

So, I’ve been sick for a week and a half now. I’m a lot better than I was, but still congested and super tired. I think I’m more tired now than I was at the beginning — but since I kept pushing myself to work (deadlines), I guess it’s to be expected. I think I got through the past two weeks purely on chocolate, caffeine and will power.

I had hoped to spend some time gaming this weekend, but I’ve mostly been eating, sleeping, watching TV or movies, and futzing around on Tumblr and Pinterest; I haven’t had the energy to do much else. I have managed to read a little, though. I’m almost through my re-read of Harry Potter 5. I’m surprised at how much I’ve forgotten about the later books.

Anyway. I have some other thoughts to share, but I’ll save them for later.

Happy Easter. Happy Sunday. Happy Spring.

Sometimes you need a love poem

needleSo, a relatively new health issue reared its ugly head last week. I’m doing better now (and it’s nothing life-threatening, despite the doctor raising the specter of the C word), but I can’t help but feel discouraged right now. The testing cost a generous sum that came straight out of my savings, which is part of why I’m so glum. (I don’t want to quote figures, but it was enough for an extremely nice vacation, if that gives you an idea.) I know I should be glad that I had savings to pay for it, but when I think about how hard I work and how careful I am with my money, it really upsets me. If I wanted to spend that much money, I can think of quite a few ways to do it that would have been more satisfying than having an unpleasant medical exam.

Anyway. One of my writer friends sent me this Tom Hiddleston video today. It helps a little.

Off the rails

I guess I jinxed myself with my earlier post, because all my progress has ground to a halt… stupid health issues have left me tired and discouraged. I think about my stories, but can’t quite bring myself to work on them.

I’m currently re-reading the Harry Potter books in an effort to feel better. I’m nearly through the second one; it seems to help.